Another decent time on the loop of 1:23:xx, but my AP was 8:16, not 8:14 so it was a little slower and I'm 90% sure it was the uphill. I had 2 miles just over 9mm which is because Mandy wasn't pushing me. She was having a crappy, tired day herself and so we both just kind of wallowed in misery instead of killing each other on the run :) But, I liked it that way!
I kept up much better with Mel and Chad, but maybe they were just running slower. Which is probably the case! Then at the end Mel had made cupcakes for Dave and Chad's birthday so we partook of her delightful death by chocolate cupcakes! The girl bakes well.
I then picked up Taylee for babysitting today and well, this darn motivation and losing Cyle at boxing and depression just set in. I was ready and dressed for the gym. I could've made it to both boxing and lift, but I didn't. I slept with the baby in my arms. I could've done a myriad of things I've wanted to get done at home...but I slept. Sigh.
If anyone, I mean ANYONE can give me a goal for me to shoot for, something to attain to...please help me! I feel like I'm falling hard and fast. I've done all the goals I've set out to do. Granted, I haven't updated my info, but I did a full IM last year, but really I feel like I've done all there is to do. So, I LOVE running, but I want to find purpose (other than being with friends) again. Because I can't really keep up with any of them anyway. So it makes me sad and crazy. Then my boxing dreams are crushed and gone with Cyle leaving and no one decent to replace him. The techers teaching now know less than I do. I don't like people like that teaching me. If I don't want to aspire to be or have what you have...then I don't want you teaching or coaching me. It is just that simple. sigh...motivation? anyone? anyone? Some goal...something?
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